What is faith? Do I have faith? How can I have faith and know when I’m being faithful? I thought these thoughts to myself as I close my book I was indulging in. It took me into deep thought about having faith. That deep thought took me back to a time where I couldn’t do anything but have faith.
It was 11:00 pm and was getting off from my second job. This day was different from the other days. I was mentally tired of working two different jobs. I thought to myself “I can’t do this anymore”. I knew things were going to change and just had to be patient, but it was taking forever for that door to open. During that time in my life, I’d only felt two emotions: Sadness and Distress.
Sadness because I felt I couldn’t talk to anyone about the situation I was in. Distress because I felt like everyone was turning against me. I knew that depression was right around the corner and I had to then think about the total opposite of the negative thoughts and emotions. I started thinking about the things I am grateful for. With being grateful, became being patient. I have to be patient for things in my life to change. After patience came having faith. Having faith that everything will work out the way it is supposed to.
Finally came the time where that door opened for me to take the next step in life but that door didn’t look like the door I had envisioned. It was scary and left me feeling uncertain about moving forward. For four days straight I ignored the opened door because of one emotion: Fear.
Late one night while leaving from work, I told myself once again, “I can’t keep doing this”. On my way home I thought about the passage I remember reading in that same book:
“Faith is: That it’s not always in your hands or things dont always go the way you planned, but you have faith that there is a plan for you and you MUST follow your heart and believe in yourself NO matter what!”
When I finally got home to my family that night, the look on their faces showed me how happy they were to see me, and from that moment I knew what I needed to do. I had to have faith that God has a plan for me. For me to get there, I have to have faith that God will guide me in the right direction. A week later my family and I decided to pack our things and head to Colorado. In Colorado, we didn’t know anyone there. We dont have any friends nor family that lived there that could help, but we knew that we had to have faith that everything will work out perfectly. We got settled on our own while being in a new state with new opportunities.
By walking with faith and not by sight help me to develop a new mindset on life. I have a quote that I remind myself whenever a challenging moment arises in my life: Have Faith! Have faith that God will guide you right where you need to be.
Was there a time in your life where you had no choice but to have faith? If so, what happened? What lesson did you learn? How are you using what you learned in your life today? Everyone has a time when life throws you a moment where it challenges you to become a better person.
Don’t give up is the motto, and ALWAYS remember to #beboldstandbackup